For all Sandy Buchannons friends...........please read

[Diana Rudd (Boehme)]

Sandy, Dianne Young and Ricky send their love and are thinking of you. She says she met John at your 50th and mentioned his lovely orchids.Her computer is down at the moment and she asked me to pass this message on to you

[SandyB]

Once  again  thanks ...

[Clive Symes]

Sandy,
I am sorry to hear the news. Sincere condolences from me and the family, my Mom would want me to include her condolences as well. Its always a shock, be strong  we are all thinking of you.
Take care, and when you want to talk there are lots of us out here.

[Keith Margetts]

Sandy,

My condolences to you . . . prayers and thoughts are with you!!

Keith.

[SandyB]

I  have for  the  last few  days dreaded  the  getting  up   .  cos  as the sun would  rise  bringing  in  a  new  day   it  would  cut  you  loose  from  the healing  sanctuary of  your  sleep  to the  realisation  that  your  life  is  changed  irrevocably  from  now  on ...  This  morning I  was  woken  up  long  before  sunrise   by  a group  of  overenthuiastic  birds   singing  in  the garden   really  urging  the  sun  to  "get up  and  rise Now!! " The  acceptance  that  no  matter how  a  person  is  taken  from  us , no  matter  how  cruel   or  unfair it  may seem  at  times   it is  ultimately  how  life  plays itself  out   and  if one  reflects  carefully   that is  normally  case  , we  all go  when  our  time  is  played  out .  Like  those  overenthusiastic  birds I  have   now made  a  pact  with  myself  to  try  and  urge  each  new day  to  come on   as  what  is  life  ultimately  about ? .. Living   each  day  to  its  fullest  possible potential ..  I  rest on  those  words ..

   

[barb (Fry)]

Sandy how brave and strong you sound, how difficult it must be to not recite "stop all the clocks" when that is how you must be feeling, all I can offer is ......

To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour
borrowed from William Blake

hour by hour until day by day.......................
spell of creation by kathleen raine is inspirational, for quiet moments.

[SandyB]

Accepted  in good  grace .. wonderful words Ta >

[SandyB]

Well here i sit on another timeline ... to the  day a year  since  Johns memorial service ..  I been in a lot of thought today .. different to last week  sat , when I had the get together  to celebrate his life .. today is my day of reflecting , thinking back , All I have is overwhelming feelings of gratitude for everything I have had so far in my life , remininces , my parents , my friends , my partner .. I have done well and been indeed blessed .. Today is not a bad  day ,its a good one , cos I am allowing myself to get gently pissed and let my  heart and emotions do what they should do  and speak my truth  openly , and no if anyones worried  nothing  maudlin or morbid .. once again birds are doing their thing in the garden , they with no promise of tomorrow are urging  each day to be the best .. Facing today as I am  and in this frame  of mind and attitude  is part of closure, as i said to Cherry today ..  i will never forget ,, I was suffering from sympathy overload and seated  myself apart in the chapel  , she just quietly and matter of factly moved forward .. sat quietly next to me as if to say " no matter what  I'm going to  be close to you "  quietly accepted and appreciated ... For me I'm wandering around my home .. sitting in the garden, sitting  in the lounges, study  etc and marvelling at what we got right together, again gratitude for  I am surrounded by beauty ..  all i can do is  new layers to what is  and was very good  to me and for me ..  and with these words I can close this timeline and move on forward from there .. I have a wonderful holiday  to Thailand coming up soon and i can really rest  body mind and soul  and  come back refreshed ...

[Bertie Horak]

 
Here's to keep on celebrating you, your memories, and your future!

[Leon Sumter]

Hi Sandy, please forgive me for being so callous and discussing silly Citroens during this sad time in your life, I was careless in not reading this thread.
Life is so extremely short and one has to pick oneself up from these heartbreaking tests and trials God puts in our path from time to time. I hope there are many happy memories of John and he will no doubt continue to live on in your life even though he is no longer with us. I hope he is in a happy place.
Condolences and comfort from me and my family.
God bless.
Leon

[SandyB]

Discussing  silly Citroens  ??  absolutely not  so ... its always a pleasure to   do so with a fellow afficionado ..   as you observed  .. I was just being frank and open about a year anniversary thing ..  my  words and thoughts can maybe help somebody when they find themselves in the same situation ...   I was not sad instead celebrating my gratitude for all the good given to me in life and one of the souls instrumental in that happening  read my words carefully and you will see that .. ...  so yes  LHM fluid  is alien blood ??

[SandyB]

As you will read below ,,

3 years on  ... Amazing how  many people remember ,,, The SMS messages and calls  from friends today saying their thoughts with me on this anniversary day of this change  in direction of life  thrust upon me  ,,,  Most  kind  and appreciated
So decided to  revisit  this posting ,,,  to put a kind of closure message ...
To say it  and  what I have repeated over and over  to anyone in pain of loss ,

"  it gets better with time only  if you want it to "

Its all about personal choice ... I  can in good conscience  say  today  whenever I see  someone in pain of loss "  Hell man  , looking back  reflect , was  it that  bad  for me  then ?? "   and can say  " Yes  it  was "  ..  I went  through  many  emotional ups and downs ,, shed many a tear  ,   my progress at times  being totally sidetracked by a memory  that  would suddenly  flit through my mind .. but yes always  2 steps forward , and the  occasional one backward ,, it's all part  of  the process . Where  I get   sideswiped mostly  is  at family get  togethers ,  a gathering  of good  life  friends ,  or  going to a  memorial service ,  realizing that  none of us are forever ,, it just  opens doors  again ... again  its part  of  the process and as long as one keeps the intent   of ....
" only  if  you want   it to "   and take   each   sideswipe  as a moment to release  emotion ,  to just let  it flow ,,  and then  to stand up tall  afterwards ,   then  one   ultimately moves forward ... I am very much there .. John has  become now very much  in my mind  "  a fellow traveler in time "   each of us on a different  journey  , but with  the memory of what  was good  safely locked away in  our hearts , the time will  come when  the anniversaries  are not relevant  anymore as  time frames  become  irrelevant  in the big scheme of things  in  this universe , our lives as big as they are  for us are  a blip ,  albeit  each an important blip   in the  big  scheme of  things  ...  That's  the strength I want to pass on to  everyone ,,, 
Acceptance ,Gratitude , Honour yourself  , Honour your Creator ...  be in awe  of   the creation ,   be aware  that you  can be a co- creator   by passing on the good ,,, the rest  all falls into place ....
Below  a song that was a favourite of John .. its from  Mike Batt  Schitzophonia  album and  strangely enough was played this evening on the radio ...  The  song is called       ....  walls of the world ..





The sun is only shining like it always does,
But I never noticed it in the sky before.
And you don't need to worry, 'cause I need your love, my friend.
There's a strong kind of feeling when I know you're near
Nobody alive can take it away from me;
And I feel like I've known you for a thousand years
Bring it out into the light.

'Cause I think I'm gonna write it on the walls of the world,
So everyone will know today the love I hold for you.
I will write it on the walls of the world,
So that the sun won't fade away the words I say to you,
I love you

And I know I'm not a loser when I'm on my own,
I could be miles away in another land,
And it keeps me together when I'm far from home,
I won't keep it out of sight.

And I think I'm gonna write it on the walls of the world,
So everyone will know today the love I hold for you
I will write it on the walls of the world
So that the sun won't fade away the words I say to you,
I love you

[Michael Alexander]

Wow, MIke Batt , walls of the world, Nice one Sandy, hope you got through the day alright......

[Paul (Pepe) Freemantle]

Hey Sandy, sorry i only saw and read this post now. I am sorry to hear about your loss and do believe that time heals itself. Just keep your focus as the Creator will Comfort you Always!!!

[Bertie Horak]

Great post Sandy... meaningful and appreciated.